Sometimes it is hard to not look back on the past with some regret. Sometimes I think to myself well If I hadn't done some of the things I did how different my life would be. How if I had stayed in Tallahassee I never would have ended up moving back in with my parents or gotten myself into debt. And sometimes I think about the amount of time I spent dating people that I didn't end up with...how different my life would have been if I hadn't spent so much time in effort making those relationships last. If I would have just let them go when they were going bad the first time maybe I would have been traveling sooner...maybe I would have finished school faster because I would have stayed in school in Tallahassee and not taking time off.
But I have to be careful when I start with regrets because of the memories that were made in those lost years. I moved out and had two of the greatest roommates and one of the best years of my life that year. I think about how much fun we had getting into trouble together. Then I think about the time I moved to Cocoa beach and how lost I was at that time but I had one of the greatest summers of my life. I lived with my best friend and I got to meet new people and have a great adventure there.
It is hard because the times have changed so much. I am not longer a young 20 year old. Sometimes I feel like I wasted time spending so much time focused on one person...that I could have been out there living life to the fullest. But even though it is hard to remember the good times I know that for a long time I was truly happy and had great experiences because of it.
The choices in your life define who you are. Even though sometimes I regret some of the choices in my life that I have made I look back and realize with out every single one of those choices I would not be the person I am today. Every time period in my life has shaped a part of me.
If I had not had made those choices I would not be discovering who I am today in China. I have to think about these things because sometimes the future is overwhelming. The choices that have to be made in the future will continue to shape who I am and it is a little scary to think about. I know that there is a purpose in everything that happens and that the puzzle pieces of my life are slowly coming together and I just have to be patient and remember everything happens for a reason and time flies too fast to sit here worrying because before you know it the present becomes the past and you look back on it and realize how great those times truly were.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
My board at work
Little surprises in life :)
I feel that it is important to celebrate and remember the happy times in China because lord knows there are China days....For those are you that are not in China with me....these days are the days where you feel like China is out to get you....the days that are recognized by everyone over here as the day where you really feel the impact of living in a completely different country on the other side of the world from everything you are comfortable with....
I have had these days that have come in stretches of two weeks spans...even though there are good things that have happened in those weeks the over all gist of the week is China days.....
I have learned that when you are having a good moment it is important to really live in that moment....that way when these days come the memories of the great days soften the blows until the next great thing happens. This weekend has been one of those weekends that I feel the need to celebrate....I finally jumped on the Hunger Games wagon and I was able to read the entire series in less than a week. It was great to spend my weekend with my nose in a book it has been a while since I have read a book and I forgot how much fun it is.
With the fast pace life we sometimes live I am starting to really enjoy the weekends where I can spend time in my house just relaxing. Yesterday, I left my house long enough to get some food for a friend and chat with her for a bit and then I was back at the house nose in a book...Today I woke up and finished the series...which meant I did not get out of bed till four...and to be honest with you it was so great!
I decided tonight would be a great night to clean up and organize and I was putting something away and I found the pants that I have been looking for for 3 months. I also found money in the pants and just for the fun of it when I was cleaning other things out I found more money....Like I said on facebook the one fun thing about being a little disorganized is that there are constant surprises in life :) :)
Other happy things about China....figuring out that there is an SD drive on this computer before I bought the device to upload pictures to my computer....not owning a car...having a wonderful apartment...with its quirks all to myself....and just everyday being an experience....it always seems to be the homesick days that I end up finding out why I love China the most.... I am thankful for the little blessings in my life that keep me going through the China days and homesick days :) :)
I have had these days that have come in stretches of two weeks spans...even though there are good things that have happened in those weeks the over all gist of the week is China days.....
I have learned that when you are having a good moment it is important to really live in that moment....that way when these days come the memories of the great days soften the blows until the next great thing happens. This weekend has been one of those weekends that I feel the need to celebrate....I finally jumped on the Hunger Games wagon and I was able to read the entire series in less than a week. It was great to spend my weekend with my nose in a book it has been a while since I have read a book and I forgot how much fun it is.
With the fast pace life we sometimes live I am starting to really enjoy the weekends where I can spend time in my house just relaxing. Yesterday, I left my house long enough to get some food for a friend and chat with her for a bit and then I was back at the house nose in a book...Today I woke up and finished the series...which meant I did not get out of bed till four...and to be honest with you it was so great!
I decided tonight would be a great night to clean up and organize and I was putting something away and I found the pants that I have been looking for for 3 months. I also found money in the pants and just for the fun of it when I was cleaning other things out I found more money....Like I said on facebook the one fun thing about being a little disorganized is that there are constant surprises in life :) :)
Other happy things about China....figuring out that there is an SD drive on this computer before I bought the device to upload pictures to my computer....not owning a car...having a wonderful apartment...with its quirks all to myself....and just everyday being an experience....it always seems to be the homesick days that I end up finding out why I love China the most.... I am thankful for the little blessings in my life that keep me going through the China days and homesick days :) :)
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Moon Festival National day and Chengdu!
So after a week in Hong Kong and a week in Chengdu I must say I am very happy to be home. However my experiences these past couple of weeks have been absolutely amazing. I am truly blessed. Chengdu is a city Northwest of Nanjing. It is a bigger city very well known for the Panda's they have there. After much teetering my friend Ivana decided on Chengdu as a great place to spend the week. We started off the week seeing the Pandas. This made the entire trip. The pandas are about the cutest thing I could ever imagine. They look like people in a panda costume. Pandas paws are like hands. They pick things up and hold things with them. When we first arrived at the park there were six pandas completely surrounded by bamboo. They were laying with it all over them and lounging all over each other it was so funny to see. Then we walked through the park and saw red pandas and pandas climbing trees and hanging in a tree sleeping. We saw baby pandas that were two months old. Ugh they were so cute. I took a million photos of them and many will be posted down below. (when I can get them uploaded). While on this trip we met some people that were staying at the Hostel that also worked for Disney English. We met some other nice people too. We met a British couple that were traveling through China as well.
When we were done with the pandas we decided to walk around Chengdu and try to find a market. We ended up running into the British Couple and went to the park with them. This park is very famous for sitting and drinking tea and getting your ears cleaned. So of course we had to try this. I did not get my ears cleaned but Ivana did and it was the weirdest thing. After the park we decided to get a message. It was like a game of cat and mouse trying to find this place that was recommended by the hostel we must have walked in circles for two hours trying to find it and no one knew where it was. Finally we realized it was on a different street that we later found. We walked on that street also and had no luck so as we were walking home a guy stopped us and asked if we were trying to get a message...we were said yes but a little weirded out. Turns out he saw the card in Ivanas hand and was the owner of the message place. It was so weird that we randomly found him on the street after hours of searching. We ended up with a great message and headed back to Hostel to hang out for the night.
The Hostel is one of the coolest places...It has an entrance area with computers you can use...a small little selection of books you can check out also. Then there is a little outdoor patio section that you can sit in. It felt like we were in a little garden area. There was a common area with a couch a few tables a little bar area, a pool table and a few cats. They always played really chill music and it was a great place to sit and mingle. Ivana and I decided to eat dinner there and then head out to this square area we had seen on the way in the night before. The one thing about China is everything is prettier at night. The buildings always have some design of lights running up and down them there are tons of lit signs and decorations. This particular area had a little water show that was timed to the music...there were lights and fountains and trees that looked like fireworks....We bought a fun little toy in the square and just hung out there for a bit before heading back to the hostel.
The next morning we got up bright and early and headed to Leshan to see the worldest largest buddha...this was an interesting adventure because we went with the people that we met from Disney and took a bus to the bus station and then took another bus to Leshan...We got to Leshan early and had heard you had to get the the line to see the feet of the buddha early...I didn't know that this was the way to see the whole buddha so we didn't rush to the line...by the time we got in line we waited for an hour and half and then realized there was like 4 more hours of a line and with the way that people push and shove here we opted against waiting in line and found a place where we could see most of the buddha then we took pictures and headed off to Emeishan where we planned to hike the mountain at sunrise....not realizing this was another huge attraction we didn't book a hotel room in advance so we ended up having to pay 200 rmb a person for the one night in a hotel room we woke up the next day and there was no sunrise due to rain but we still hiked around the mountain...this is where I realized there is no nature in China...everything is a tourist attraction...the mountains are paved or have stairs there are vendors everywhere and you have to pay to climb a mountain...we decided it was too much to pay to get in and the main attraction there was too far away to make it back in time for the last bus so instead we headed out a little early and hung out in Chengdu. We found these delicious fries cooked on the street...and ate lots of street food and fruit on a stick :)
The next day we decided to go to QingCheng Mtn and then do the opera that night.....So we headed out early the next morning and went to QingCheng Mtn. This was a cheaper mountain with beautiful views....and lots of temples...we also saw a cave and walked down almost 90 degree angle stairs that were skinny and slick from rain...luckily we didn't fall....We got a little lost on the mountain but made it back in time to catch a bus back to Chengdu for the Opera.....The bus was over crowded so the guy put me in the front seat so I could get a delightful view of him running every stop light...There were girls sitting on the part that I think the Engine was under and every time passed cops or went to a toll the man had the girls huddle down so no one could see that the bus was over crowded...that ride was an experience in itself...
We made it back for the Opera and met some really nice people at the opera....It was a neat experience nothing like what I thought it would be...there was not really any singing...
The hostel room we booked was a mixed room and so we met a nice couple that stayed with us a few nights and then came back and had to stay in another room...the night before QingCheng Mtn we were at the hostel hanging out in the common area and we saw them so we just chatted with them and decided that we all wanted to go out the last night...so we met up after the opera and had dinner and then went to a club it was such a great ending to a wonderful trip!
When we were done with the pandas we decided to walk around Chengdu and try to find a market. We ended up running into the British Couple and went to the park with them. This park is very famous for sitting and drinking tea and getting your ears cleaned. So of course we had to try this. I did not get my ears cleaned but Ivana did and it was the weirdest thing. After the park we decided to get a message. It was like a game of cat and mouse trying to find this place that was recommended by the hostel we must have walked in circles for two hours trying to find it and no one knew where it was. Finally we realized it was on a different street that we later found. We walked on that street also and had no luck so as we were walking home a guy stopped us and asked if we were trying to get a message...we were said yes but a little weirded out. Turns out he saw the card in Ivanas hand and was the owner of the message place. It was so weird that we randomly found him on the street after hours of searching. We ended up with a great message and headed back to Hostel to hang out for the night.
The Hostel is one of the coolest places...It has an entrance area with computers you can use...a small little selection of books you can check out also. Then there is a little outdoor patio section that you can sit in. It felt like we were in a little garden area. There was a common area with a couch a few tables a little bar area, a pool table and a few cats. They always played really chill music and it was a great place to sit and mingle. Ivana and I decided to eat dinner there and then head out to this square area we had seen on the way in the night before. The one thing about China is everything is prettier at night. The buildings always have some design of lights running up and down them there are tons of lit signs and decorations. This particular area had a little water show that was timed to the music...there were lights and fountains and trees that looked like fireworks....We bought a fun little toy in the square and just hung out there for a bit before heading back to the hostel.
The next morning we got up bright and early and headed to Leshan to see the worldest largest buddha...this was an interesting adventure because we went with the people that we met from Disney and took a bus to the bus station and then took another bus to Leshan...We got to Leshan early and had heard you had to get the the line to see the feet of the buddha early...I didn't know that this was the way to see the whole buddha so we didn't rush to the line...by the time we got in line we waited for an hour and half and then realized there was like 4 more hours of a line and with the way that people push and shove here we opted against waiting in line and found a place where we could see most of the buddha then we took pictures and headed off to Emeishan where we planned to hike the mountain at sunrise....not realizing this was another huge attraction we didn't book a hotel room in advance so we ended up having to pay 200 rmb a person for the one night in a hotel room we woke up the next day and there was no sunrise due to rain but we still hiked around the mountain...this is where I realized there is no nature in China...everything is a tourist attraction...the mountains are paved or have stairs there are vendors everywhere and you have to pay to climb a mountain...we decided it was too much to pay to get in and the main attraction there was too far away to make it back in time for the last bus so instead we headed out a little early and hung out in Chengdu. We found these delicious fries cooked on the street...and ate lots of street food and fruit on a stick :)
The next day we decided to go to QingCheng Mtn and then do the opera that night.....So we headed out early the next morning and went to QingCheng Mtn. This was a cheaper mountain with beautiful views....and lots of temples...we also saw a cave and walked down almost 90 degree angle stairs that were skinny and slick from rain...luckily we didn't fall....We got a little lost on the mountain but made it back in time to catch a bus back to Chengdu for the Opera.....The bus was over crowded so the guy put me in the front seat so I could get a delightful view of him running every stop light...There were girls sitting on the part that I think the Engine was under and every time passed cops or went to a toll the man had the girls huddle down so no one could see that the bus was over crowded...that ride was an experience in itself...
We made it back for the Opera and met some really nice people at the opera....It was a neat experience nothing like what I thought it would be...there was not really any singing...
The hostel room we booked was a mixed room and so we met a nice couple that stayed with us a few nights and then came back and had to stay in another room...the night before QingCheng Mtn we were at the hostel hanging out in the common area and we saw them so we just chatted with them and decided that we all wanted to go out the last night...so we met up after the opera and had dinner and then went to a club it was such a great ending to a wonderful trip!
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